I am not what I am

I dont know what to write in this post :( .

What I would have been doing now if I dint qualify in CAT. I might have been back at HSBC, working just like this day and night. I might have been developing some new REXX code with vijay. I might have been automating the routine work processes. I might have been guiding padma and sushil on debugging programs. I might have been playing TT with vijay after office hours. I might have been watching pics on idlebrain.com with aravind. I might have been bugging aravind to explain the code that I dont know. I might have been riding my bike at 100kmph speed to office. I might have forgot my keys at the bike itself and searching my place in the office for ten times. I might have gone for team outing. I might have been crying in case I lost the cricket match. I might have asked deepthi to see my contributions to poor on behalf of my best friend. I might have asked manohar to check my mail and make the changes according to his suggestions. I might be asking deepthi to suggest a place for CSR activities. I might have listened to sivaram about his views on our big boss at U.K.

I might have gone to movie on every weekend. I might have been asking sandesh to come to my house. I might have been watching a movie that I downloaded previous night. I might have gone to my uncle's place at least once in a month.

Now, I am somewhere far from hyderabad.

I am here for some reason. May be I can restore all the above after some period of time but I cannot get my present life again.

I would like to thank my best friend for throwing me here.

I am being haunted by some bad memories. I am desperately looking for a solution. I am exhausted of trying all the options.

I dont know what to write.

Thats it